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"Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is Alchemy's first law of Equivalent Exchange. In those days, we really believed that to be the world's one and only truth."


    Full Metal Alchemist was not only my first anime, but the one that resonated and actually saved my life. The quote above is the main motif and principle of the show which is repeated by Alphonse Elric before the opening song is played. It lays out the law of the universe that boils down to you cannot receive something without first giving in return; everything is give and take.

    I have been suffering from 2 eating disorders for the past 2 years. I went from being overweight, to anorexic, to bulimic, to going through recovery, to exercise OCD and starving myself again. I would freak out about eating and exercising everyday, trying to cut weight for cosplays or guys or just the obsessive need to be thin. So even though I’ve gained weight and am trying to eat like a normal person a part of me would still restrict and cut and over exercise all the time, because I hate how I look. This would lead to a cycle of my metabolism being out of whack and wanting more and more food, which would scare me into more bad habits. My smart friends would always tell me, “You can’t just go a week without carbs. You need food. That’s what your body works out with. Eating actually lets you burn more.”

    Then it hit me one day. Maybe the answer to my problems all this time was that I wasn’t looking at my food intake and exercise as an exchange. An equivalent exchange. For the body to actually be toned, thin, and healthy you need to be put food into it. I mean I would view this but in a wrong way of saying that everything I ate needed to be burned off, which is also wrong, but an exchange of energy and calories needs to take place. That a day of exercise needs to be exchanged with a day of rest. Cutting/restricting and then over exercising is two actions of taking. There is no giving or receiving in that equation, so it is almost as bad as transmuting somebody back to life. There needs to be a give in the take. That’s how life works and that’s how the body works.

    For the past two weeks I have been very close to relapsing again, because I see my new appetite, cutting/restricting, cosplay goals, image in the mirror, all those thoughts are circling my head and it strains me. My body is literally beat up and I’m getting sick I feel. But I truly can remember that all the work I do needs to be followed up with rest by following this law of exchange taught to me by my favorite anime. It’s funny how that works, but it’s helped me through some rough times. To obtain the healthy body I need, the need to be thin needs to be lost, but at the same time an equal medium can be made where happiness is met by following a balance. Balance is the key. I will keep going forward and I hope things turn around just as they did for the Elric brothers.~


“A lesson without pain is meaningless. For you cannot gain anything without sacrificing something else in return, but once you have overcome it and made it your own...you will gain an irreplaceable fullmetal heart.”


-Allissoon
  • Mood: Relief
  • Listening to: Kirby's Dream Band
  • Reading: Game of Thrones
  • Watching: Junjo Romanitca
  • Playing: KH2
  • Eating: eggs
  • Drinking: Milk
Soooo things have TOTALLY changed for me now that I'm halfway through my Disney College Program experience. I'll just spark note whats going on, cause I have sooo much work to do haha


First and foremost, my old boyfriend snapped and went crazy after HE broke up with me, soooooo we are not together. He got super mad at me for adopting a dog, and then getting more and mroe frustrated. He broke up with one night after coming home for being too busy and my ED (stupidest reason ever). I went a couple days later to get my dog (that another housemate of his was watching not him) and left a painting of us we got in NY with a note (he didnt want to talk and i didnt want it anymore). I did not blame him for anything but addressed my feelings that I didnt get to say, like he treated me badly, didnt take me on a date, borrowed money and never gave it back...idk...He flipped out. Demanded I drive back and he yelled at me on his front lawn at 2am about how I am a shit person and all the time together we had was horrible. Literally two days before he broke up with me he told me how much he loved me.
    After that, I took him off my cartoon show. He blew up again; left harassing emails, threats, texts it was horrible. I have it all saved as evidence, cause I almost got a restraining order, but ya. People are crazy and emotional abusive so I'm glad that done.

The note on my dog, I had to give him to another family recently because he needed more space to run. We also were on two totallyyyy different schedules, we would sleep when I was at work, Id get home form a night shift and be exhausted and he would want to play. He is in good hands and now I have my childhood cat in my apartment. SO thats rad.

Cosplay has been going rad. Pulled off a greatttt Janna at WonderCon 2015 this year. I met some really cool people, finally had the con experience I wanted and partied at night too. There I met my new boyfriend, Crosby, who is a flippin saint. I have never met someone so kind, funny, nerdy, hot and cool, its like the person I was looking for. I know things are moving fast but its a connection I cant pass up and we both had a similar ex experience and know where we are emotionally. Its so refreshing. He is the nicest person I have ever dated and treats me like a princess and I just....oh my god he is sooo wonderful and I just wanna coast and see how things go. He has made my recovery SO much better and really really calms me down.

In other news, the Disney College Program...is...well a thing. Not gonna lie, i am very very very very excited for it to be over. The hours are shit and exhausting (the 60th hasnt even started D:) If I had known I wasnt gonna have a regular schedule and never get weekend so to see my friends, probably wouldn't have done it. I had to move out of the Disney apartments for health reasons, but i love my new studio. Everything is all set up for USC in the fall and I can't waaaait to be back there. But I love having Disney on my resume and I've met some really cool people! Plus its given me tons of time to work on my Cartoon show and do comissioned art!

I'll post later about my cartoon show. But ya that's about exactly how its going~ Whats new with you guys?

-Allissoon
  • Mood: Love
  • Listening to: Bob's Burgers
  • Reading: Game of Thrones
  • Watching: Bob's Burgers
  • Playing: Majora's Mask 3DS
  • Eating: eggs
  • Drinking: coke zero

"Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is Alchemy's first law of Equivalent Exchange. In those days, we really believed that to be the world's one and only truth."


    Full Metal Alchemist was not only my first anime, but the one that resonated and actually saved my life. The quote above is the main motif and principle of the show which is repeated by Alphonse Elric before the opening song is played. It lays out the law of the universe that boils down to you cannot receive something without first giving in return; everything is give and take.

    I have been suffering from 2 eating disorders for the past 2 years. I went from being overweight, to anorexic, to bulimic, to going through recovery, to exercise OCD and starving myself again. I would freak out about eating and exercising everyday, trying to cut weight for cosplays or guys or just the obsessive need to be thin. So even though I’ve gained weight and am trying to eat like a normal person a part of me would still restrict and cut and over exercise all the time, because I hate how I look. This would lead to a cycle of my metabolism being out of whack and wanting more and more food, which would scare me into more bad habits. My smart friends would always tell me, “You can’t just go a week without carbs. You need food. That’s what your body works out with. Eating actually lets you burn more.”

    Then it hit me one day. Maybe the answer to my problems all this time was that I wasn’t looking at my food intake and exercise as an exchange. An equivalent exchange. For the body to actually be toned, thin, and healthy you need to be put food into it. I mean I would view this but in a wrong way of saying that everything I ate needed to be burned off, which is also wrong, but an exchange of energy and calories needs to take place. That a day of exercise needs to be exchanged with a day of rest. Cutting/restricting and then over exercising is two actions of taking. There is no giving or receiving in that equation, so it is almost as bad as transmuting somebody back to life. There needs to be a give in the take. That’s how life works and that’s how the body works.

    For the past two weeks I have been very close to relapsing again, because I see my new appetite, cutting/restricting, cosplay goals, image in the mirror, all those thoughts are circling my head and it strains me. My body is literally beat up and I’m getting sick I feel. But I truly can remember that all the work I do needs to be followed up with rest by following this law of exchange taught to me by my favorite anime. It’s funny how that works, but it’s helped me through some rough times. To obtain the healthy body I need, the need to be thin needs to be lost, but at the same time an equal medium can be made where happiness is met by following a balance. Balance is the key. I will keep going forward and I hope things turn around just as they did for the Elric brothers.~


“A lesson without pain is meaningless. For you cannot gain anything without sacrificing something else in return, but once you have overcome it and made it your own...you will gain an irreplaceable fullmetal heart.”


-Allissoon
  • Mood: Relief
  • Listening to: Kirby's Dream Band
  • Reading: Game of Thrones
  • Watching: Junjo Romanitca
  • Playing: KH2
  • Eating: eggs
  • Drinking: Milk

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Allissoon
Artist | Student | Film & Animation
United States
Terve, I'm Allissoon. I study Interactive Media, Animation and Japanese at USC. (I know its a ton of stuff). I love basically everything, so that includes you YEAH, and I accept commissions. Feel free to send a message at any point.

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streetgals9000 Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2015
Happy Birthday, Allissoon !!! :D   
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TheCelticTampon Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Student Filmographer
THANKS :D :D
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zimus Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank for the fav !!
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TheCelticTampon Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2014  Student Filmographer
no worries~
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Bewitchedrune Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you for adding my Mary Poppins cosplay! Hexentanz 
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TheCelticTampon Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2014  Student Filmographer
no problemo! :D
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bclara88 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2014
Thanks for the fav.
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TheCelticTampon Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2014  Student Filmographer
no problemo!
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Thank you for the fave! :icononionx3plz:
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No problemo~ :D :D
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